you are twenty-five and you are in the first situation of your life that someone can’t bail you out of and that requires you to use your sense of [ ] but, again, again, that’s the problem, you only have a [ ]. and you try your best anyway,
because you are what you are and you can never be anything else,
and what you are will make this decision because it’s the only thing you can do,
and the only thing that you can do will lead you to the only place that you belong,
(but you wouldn’t be here in the first place if you weren’t what you are so it all spirals in on itself and)
you are,
of course:
nothing - American
[nuhth-ing] / ˈnʌθ ɪŋ /
noun
no thing; not anything; naught.
no part, share, or trace (usually followed by/of ).
something that is nonexistent.
nonexistence; nothingness.
something of no importance or significance.
a trivial action, matter, circumstance, thing, or remark.
a person of little or no importance; a nobody.
something that is without quantity or magnitude.
a cipher or naught.
and
BABE? WHAT WAS THAT?
but it looks like, as you run, that sylas isn’t actually behind you. something crunches underfoot. logic says that you should run but curiosity says that you should take a peek. and you have defied logic, so what harm is it to pursue curiosity?
it’s a phone. instagram is open.
oh, alannah’s come back. these thoughts are not your own. she’s moved into a new place. i recognize that style of mcmansion horseshit. i know
you look back up.
and,
you’re not where you were any more you’re in -
the room is pitch black and you can hear it pounding in your ears like the beat of your heart like the thrumming of a migraine like the rhythmic pulse of a machine six three six three six three six three you can’t hear anything else what is that? what is that it’s an impact it’s a percussion it’s the sound of something on something so what is what and who is what and what have you done? what have you done?
you haven’t done anything anything anything anything there it is there is jessssssssssssssssssSyla’s little cane little funny cane for the f f f funny man he’s BACK little big funny man look at him go look at the way he moves it’s so silly you can’t take him s s s seriously s s s six pause three pause six pause three pause where are we going it’s dark it’s dark there’s nothing there you didn’t do anything and he didn’t do anything and i didn’t do anything nothing there’s nothing there’s
the light it shines and he jingles in like nothing is wrong because nothing is wrong. nothing is wrong and there are two chairs for two happy lovers and there are no there is the couple right there they’re happy hhhhhappy happy happy no it’s fine they’re just asleep asleep in their new castle in their new home in their new home in their new home in their new home asleep on the floor and what is that sylas what is that splatter what is that smell did you redecorate? did he did i who did that well it was a bit boring anyway wasn’t it? a bit boring so you did them a favor. you did them a favor you did them a six three six three six three it’s pounding like nothing else it’s like you’re -
HEY WAIT
they need to be crowned !
so Sylas takes the crowns and his staff and he [CROWNS THEM]
yes
that’s all he does and you didn’t see
anything else
nothing else nothing else it’s all fine they’re happy now (you have to hold it together) they’re fine (it’s fine) IT’S FINE. IT’S FINE IT’S FINE IT’S FINE IT’S FINE IT’S FINE
YOU DIDN’T
SEE
ANYTHING BECAUSE THERE’S NOTHING THERE
SO GET OUT
